Manifestation

I find myself drawn to the not so likely outcomes.

Impossibilities made possible 

Through grit

Vision

The ability to push on

Past doubts

Discouragement 

From our own mind

Or others 

I believe in manifesting 

But cringe 

When the implication is that thought alone 

Creates the vision 

I see manifestation 

As a vision 

That creates an action 

That true manifestation 

Is the ability to believe 

In what you're capable of 

Eternal Girl

So late and my mind wanders

I recall the little girl

Inhabiting this body

Who weeped 

Throughout childhood 

Unable to understand, the others

Who struggled to answer 

For herself 

And saw books as portals 

Into other people's minds

I thought if I studied enough 

I could stop the relentless inadequacy 

I felt 

If only I could learn enough 

To free myself from obligation 

I could do what I wanted then

I wished for love 

But was used

And the relentless call to learn 

Did not end 

I lay here holding my own slender hand 

Alone

I miss you 

I'm sure I am a fool 

Eternally questioning 

My broken heart